Sunday Night.
My Dear Howells:
My sense of disgrace does not abate. It grows. I see that it is going to add itself to my list of [permannencies]—a list of humiliations that extends back to when I was seven years old, & which keep on persecuting me regardless of my repenteancies.1
I feel that my misfortune has gone injured me all over the country; therefore it will be best that I retire from before the public at present. It will hurt the Atlantic for me to appear in its pages, now. So it is my opinion & my wife’s, that the telephone story had better be suppressed. If Will you return those proofs or revises to me, so that I can use the same on some future occasion?2
It seems as if I must have been insane when I wrote that speech & saw no harm in it, no disrespect toward those men whom I reverenced so much. And what shame I brought upon you, after what you said in introducing me! It burns me like fire to think of it.3
The whole matter is a dreadful subject—let me drop it here—at least on paper.4
Penitently yrs
Mark.
Explanatory Notes | Textual Commentary
On 25 December, before replying to Clemens, Howells wrote to Charles Dudley Warner: “This morning I got a letter from poor Clemens that almost breaks my heart. I hope I shall be able to answer it in just the right way” (TS in CtHT-W). Howells then wrote (CU-MARK): The note from Charles Eliot Norton (1827–1908), an eminent author, editor, and Harvard professor of art history who also spoke at the Whittier dinner, was presumably a reply to a letter from Howells of 19 December: And what a sweet and graceful and gracious speech you made the other night!—All sense of that and of other things was long blotted out for me by that hideous mistake of poor Clemens’s. As you have more than once expressed a kindness for him, you will like to know that before he had fairly touched his point, he felt the awfulness of what he was doing, but was fatally helpless to stop. He was completely crushed by it, and though it killed the joy of the time for me, I pitied him; for he has a good and reverent nature for good things, and his performance was like an effect of demonical possession. The worst of it was, I couldn’t see any retrieval for him. (Howells 1979, 182) The “fastidious” reader of Clemens’s speech was Harvard English Professor Francis J. Child (1825–96). In 1910, in “My Mark Twain,” Howells recalled receiving a glowing note from Professor Child, who had read the newspaper report of it, praising Clemens’s burlesque as the richest piece of humor in the world, and betraying no sense of incongruity in its perpetration in the presence of its victims. I think it must always have ground in Clemens’s soul, that he was the prey of circumstances, and that if he had some more favoring occasion he could retrieve his loss in it, by giving the thing the right setting. Not more than two or three years ago, he came to try me as to trying it again at a meeting of newspaper men in Washington. I had to own my fears, while I alleged Child’s note on the other hand, but in the end he did not try it with the newspaper men. (Howells 1968, 296–97)
Source text(s):
Previous publication:
MTL, 1:316; MTB, 2:606; MTHL, 1:212.
Provenance:
See Howells Letters in Description of Provenance.
Emendations and textual notes:
permannencies • perman- | nencies